I cannot take anything anymore. Everything is too much and I am drowning in it all. I need help and no one is here to help me, not even so much as to offer me support. Its too much and I feel like I have no one to turn to. No body really cares. Everyone is so consumed in their own problems no one can see me struggling, or care enough to do anything. How come I feel like I can care about others and myself, but no one else can. I can’t take being alone. I am so upset and so stupid and useless and I cant take anything anymore.
I can’t even fucking do my math homework properly. I used to be so good at it and now I can hardly understand. Just like the rest of my life. I used to be so much happier and now I can hardly stand to wake up in the morning. I just want to disappear and not have to deal with anything anymore. I just want to be happy, but it seems that that will never be a possibility.
Today someone cared. And it wasn’t anyone I even knew. A total stranger. I don’t think they know how much I appreciate that.
“If the moon smiled, she would resemble you.
You leave the same impression
Of something beautiful, but annihilating.”
“I want us to make each other better.”
I want nothing more than to be nothing. I am so done.
I really don’t know how much more I can handle.